新的开始

我想今天就当作是新的开始吧。。

早上为了不要坏掉我的心情。。很早就出门了。。
可是出门时却碰到了她。。只好假装没看到。。戴着耳机听歌。。因为她刚好要进厕所。。。避开了。。

看到了daphne, stephanie, richie, albert, ee wen & 一个女生。。就开始了我们唱K之旅。。还不错哦。。不会像那次跟那个eric那么无聊。。尤其是albert。。唱得不赖哦。。可是我们也学到了要蹲着唱歌哦。。kik着sai来唱歌。。会好听一点哦。。可是本人觉得还是跟nc1, fi 他们唱会更棒。。呵呵。。

也预约好了考完试再去疯。。希望那位“妻子”不要跟来。。嘻嘻。。　今天也跟他们聊了很多。。也８到了很多八卦。。爽死了～～那位cc仁兄啊。。我真的服的你五体投地了。。这世上还有这样的人。。不要脸到境界了。。还夸张。。吹牛。。真是有你的。。。

回到家后。。ben &ken 竟然破天荒。。赞我。。真是一大奇迹。。可是很快我也被他们继续欺负了。。还逼我爆出了体重。。天啊～～　命苦~ing...

过后还是见到了那对“夫妻”。。幸好没什么是发生。。我也继续我的电影（ben n ken 逼我看）。。　然后当然是我的assign 时间咯。。加油！！！

想通了。。回来了。。

想通了。。回来了。。 我想我终于可以找回一丁点以前的我了。。。
希望可以持续下去。。。

至少不要再 anti-social 了。。
朋友们。。。我回来了。。。

对不起。。让你们担心了。。。希望不会再有了。。。
爱你们。。。谢谢你们。。

加油。。保重。。

我亲爱的 fifi,

其实我真的很谢谢你。。。因为你总是会关心我。。可是也很对不起。。让你费心了。。
其实这几天我也不知道为什么。。 总是会看回以前的照片。。也看回我们的回忆。。自己也很不争气得哭起来。。
是自己便的感情丰富还是什么呢？真的开始觉得自己很没用了。。

今天晚上你就要走了。。。一路顺风哦。。虽然只有短短的几分钟通电。。。可是不知怎的。。有种暖暖的感觉出现。。同时我不争气的眼泪也想出来。。可是它还是被我停住了。。。

我亲爱的 goh chai chai，

你要加油哦。。虽然很久没有跟你联络。。可是看到你的pm都很感伤。。而且压力也很大。。要加油哦。。等我回去后，我会去烦你的。。。 要等我哦。

其实我真的有很多话想跟你们说。。 可是每次都不知道应该怎样说出口。。虽然我们各自都有各自的朋友。。可是如果没有你们。。应该也没有真正的秋美。。。因为秋美在你们面前永远是那么实在。。那么开心。。记得我说过。。跟你们在一起。。我可以吃很多。。胃口很好吗？？ 这些都是真的。。我也不知道为什么。。总是觉得跟你们在一起。。 什么都不用想太多也不用怕什么。。跟你们在一起。。真的很舒服。。很有安全感。。

从我来到这里以后，我才发现以前的我们是多么幸福，自在。。来到这里。。很多东西都是事不愿为。。。也必须自己去面对。。因为没有人可以帮到你。。不像以前的我们。。有真心的朋友在身边固然是件好事。。如果没有。。就要靠自己。。就像这次的我。。我会靠自己的努力去面对事情。。也会走出这片阴深的森林。。。找到灿烂的彩虹。。因为我知道你都在支持我。。谢谢你们。。

虽然现在的我们都在不同的地方。。希望我们的心可以连在一起。。记得我们的约定吗？？一起去韩国。。我很期待哦。。

希望我们三人的友情 "chap goh mei "永远都不会变。。。因为你们总是我最重要的朋友。。最重要的亲人。。。

累了

真的觉得累了。。。
无论是心理，
心灵???
还是肉体。。
全都累了。。
真得好累好累。。

读书累了...
工作累了...
脑袋累了...
神经累了...
肢体累了...
眼睛累了...
耳朵累了...
语言累了...
呼吸累了...
假面具也累了...

生活真的好累..
我还可以撑下去吗？？

我现在真的好像回到属于我的避风港...现在的我..真的好害怕..
我已经开始看不清前面的路了... 我也不知道我应该如何去面对了..
要逃避还是伪装呢？

在别人的面前，我想他们看到的都是原来的我吧..可是为什么..我却觉得那么陌生呢？？
以前的我不是很开朗..把烦恼都丢掉的吗？？
可是为什么我现在会是这样呢？？
真的是我自己吗？？

有人说我变了...
换做以前的我..肯定会问他是真的吗.. 然后告诉他：“我没变！”..
可是现在的我,却以笑来带过.. 真得连那种力气也没了...

戴假面具真得好累...好辛苦...
我... 我可以脱下来吗？？

perasan

omg!!! is dis world really got ppl so perasan???

y'day nite.. e & f were came here n pull us out for supper.. which v onli look at them eat... n the gal was saying me no gv face.. dun eat.. god... i jus finish the pizza.. damn full man.. how to eat the porridge.. crazy!!! n she jus keep forcing ppl to eat... cheh... n really cant tahan her... she told e & f tat she wil stay here after graduate... jus to ACCOMPANY ME!!! man... did i ask her to company me?? NOPE.. DEFINITELY NO!!!! I SWEAR!!! for wat i wan she company me... not i'm the one without her i wil die... is she think til she so important in my life??? NOWAY man!!! i wont die without her.. but wil bcome more energetic n happier n be bac myself without her.. y i wanna change my life jus bcos of her... i'm not mad... i'm not crazy.. i'm not insane... she even cant compare with my truly frens k... but she oways tot tat she know me so so so so well... wth is tat... so perasan!! so thick face... n i realise.. she wil feel very happy when she saying i'm not a gal.. i'm rude.. i'm fat.. i'm ugly... duno how to make up.. duno howto use those facial product.. blah blah.. she feel tat she is so so so proud of tat.. excuse me.. I'M NOT INTERESTED AT ALL... N I DUN CARE... wat u wanna say.. jus go ahead.. damn malas to layan u.. yucks..

n the damn weird thing.. she oways complain she is so stress.. n when ppl bc abt their studies n assign.. she will oways act she sick.. gastric or watever to catch ur attention.. man... i'm not nurse or doctor.. sick go c doc la.. since u so damn rich.. 千金小姐!! go la.. v all poor ppl... ned to work.. ned to study... not like u... got parents sayang.. n ur DAMN GOOD BF SAYANG.. go tel them la.. wth wanna find me...i'm not ur who who who... even if i wanna be less oso wont find u la... not everyone oso get attractive by u wan loh...

beh tahan

i serious beh tahan!!! y the ppl ned to be so FAKE!!! can sumone pls tel me y... W-H-Y~~

since v already stay 2gether.. hsemate ok... dun so fake... cant she jus b back ownself... jus like how she live in her family?? or is she always so fake even in her family?? seriuosly beh tahan.. n ridiculous thing is i still ned to pretend very close and nothing... like i dont mind anything.. omg.. jus tel me why.. or i shud beg her to be bac herself?? 1stly say tat she dun like the toys here.. n thn she dun seem like very enjoy the olympic and the 5 dolls... but nw.. is my fault for not bringing tat 5 dolls for her... n blame i din tel her about the new toys in happy meal... gosh.. i'm not her who.. wth i noe wat she wan or wat she ned... even my damn best frens i oso din do such thing.. i'm not her mother or her lover.. not even guardian!! dun expect wat i oso wil do..

do u feel tat u really so stress?? thn do i ned to commit suicide?? jus only got 1 assign thn keep complain headache n dis n tat.. thn wat shud i do? i even got more thn u... get ppl's attention not using dis way... n it is not work wf us... if u wanna show.. jus to ur bf.. he wil care of u.. v wil take care u... but not CARE.. like how a bf or mother treat... yucks..

memory

duno y 2day jus feel like wanna go frenster to view fren's profile.. n i realise that... everything seem like keep on changing... no matter is our appearance or character, personality... sooner or later... wil it b frenship??? i hope not...

but while i view bac the photo.. it really bring me bac to the past time... n i was really gladful that i hv a chance to meet up n hang ard wf u guys... but due to personal reason.. like study abroad... working.. that will make us hard to meet up... it is getting harder n harder... once a yr only hv the chance to meet up.. or mayb not even once... few yrs once? but i stil hope that v can keep in touch wf each others....

my dearest qingu fifi is goin to uk dis sept... for 2 yrs... n seems like very hard to meet up wf her.. cos when i bac kl she already in uk... hope tat she wil b fine over tere.. n everything fine tere... n my another qingu goh chai chai.. no worries.. i wil go bac n meet up wf u.. hehe.. SULA stil on k...

n for my pen pen... also hard to meet up wf her.. she stil ned to stay in japan for few more yrs.. hope tat dis comin cny v got a chance to meet up... cos i really miss her... take good care ya...

n for my ahma... hehe.. rmb o.. end of the yr v gonna meet up de o.. wf u all the best NC1 first aider... heheh... our 10 sis... duno got chance to meet up again anot.. hehe... take good care lo ^_*... hope the time can pass faster n faster!!! miss u guys...

skl reopen

ding~~ skl reopen lo... happy?? sad?? excited?? busy?? stress?? frustrated??? annoying?? whatever la!! i'm WELL PREPARED!!! come on!!

2day is the 1st day back to class.. i was thinking the lecturers were still in holiday mood n wont teach much.. jus talk abt the unit outline... BUT!!!! i'm wrong!!!

i dunno when the lecturers become super duper triple HARDWORKING!! they really gv lecture!!! for the whole class!!! 2 hrs lec... full-filled 2 hrs!!! onli break for 5 mins!!! gosh!!!! 1st day onli leh!!! how come so seriuos!!! n they taught alot!! not jus few slide..!!! is damn lot!!! siao de!!!

adui!!! only 1st day leh.. where got so fast back to study mood ar!!! MR HARDWORKING LECTURER... alamak... suffering day is comin soon!! the lecture is so so so BORED!!! nak tidur!!! hope i can cope it up n study mood faster come back!!!

n for my dearest uma.. BE STRONG!!! BE TOUGH!!! there is nothing can beat u down k.. n u r not alone... cos v oways here.. u still got us!!! so dun feel lonely k.. i'm sure he wil regret for wat he did... all the best n gudluck in ur studies n work k.... dun worry be happy... ciaoz..

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从早上一直到晚上十一点之前。。。都是我的天。。。因为今天一整天都是开心和充实的美好一天。。。 可是。。好景不长在。。。快乐的时光很快就换来伤心的时段。。。

如果没有让他跟他们去喝茶。。。那问题就不会发生。。为什么我总会让人担心呢？？我也想让人放心啊。。 可是我明明做到的。。却中途杀出个程咬金。。是我的错吗？？？

难得放假。。对于留学半读生。。当然是做工的好机会。。。从昨天开始就已经很幸运了。。拿多了几天的shift。。。可是。。却偏偏在这时。。杀出个程咬金。。。 说了一些话。。让“他”担心。。同时也让“他”阻止了我的计划。。 我只想在这个假期里赚些生活费。。难道是错吗？？ 我都说了。。 我那一区很安全。。就算我到晚上十点多。。伟大的警察们都在附近。。可是却因为程咬金的一番话。。。让“他”对我有点失去信心。。也让“他”觉得自己很没用。。。 可是那一带。。我已经熟到不行了。。 那里安全。。那里危险我都知道了。。遇到什么样的人说什么样的话我都懂了。。 发生事情的机率非常低。。可是。。。haih。。。

从那一刻开始。。 我的心都不知道飘到那里去了。。。开始失去了方向。。真的要这样吗？？

最后的奋斗

就剩下个星期。。。我必须做最后的奋斗！！用尽全力向前爬。。。
路是要自己勇敢的向前走。。不管遇到什么困难都没有人能帮到你！！要加油！！
朋友。。亲人。。知己。。是要来分享快乐。。而不是分享悲伤。。。所以。。 不能依赖！！

no matter how tiring... how suffering.. how torturing.. u stil ned to sustain til the end!!!
DIS IS WAT V CAL UNI LIFE!!!

uni full time student = STUDY.. PROJECT... ASSIGNS.. TEST... EXAM....which enuf to make u sleepless for whole month!!!

study abroad student = STUDY.. PROJECT... ASSIGNS.. TEST... EXAM.... WORKS... which enuf to take ur soul away..

exhausted man!!! is tere anyone willing to help me??? pls use a gun or watever to end my life... i'm so tiring.......

i wish i could go bac to sec skl... altho is impossible.. but.. jus let me dream.. i wish i could go bac to tat 避风港.. sound stupid isnt... but is from my true heart... i already long time din cry b4.. but cant denied... i jus did it last thur nite.... for wat? i duno... emo?? mayb.. but jus wanna release... n nw.. kc renovating.. i dun hv any 避风港.. 梦碎了。。。是时候觉醒了...

fi oways say i wont say out the thing.. i admit... but nw.. even wanan say it out.. i oso cant.. cos.. it's already bcome part of my life n my habit... cant change...

anyway!!! my dearest nc1 ahma... happy 21st b'day wai ling!!!! may all ur wishes come true ya.. i'm waiting for my ah ba leh... n stil waiting for our trip... miss u all so much..

520

fifi!!!! HAPPY 21ST B'DAY!!!!
may all ur wishes come true.. hehe....
altho once again i cant celebrate wf u. but as v promise.. after graduate,... v mus celebrate 2gether every yr k.. haha...
but i wont get to meet for the folowing yr.... but v got WEBCAM!!! haha... mus fully use of it o.. hehe.... i'm so miss u o. fifi.. n goh chai chai oso.. haih. so miss the date tat v oways 2gether....
CHAP GOH MEI rocks!!!

altho dis shud b a happy day.. but due to the UNI LIFE!!! ( assign + pro + exam) make ppl so sick!!! n jus get a bad news tat.. suppose got 4 ppls in the combined project group.. nw.. onli left 2 ppls.. n the worst thing is.... DUE ON FRI!!! n wat kind of ppl of them. nw onli tel us.... n blame us last min work... do v wanna do it last min?? cant she c v stil got others assign n pro which is given continuously... NON STOP works??? CANT SHE???

no matter how... v stil ned to work hard for tat.. altho jus left both of us.. i oso wanna finish it... if individual is ok.. fine.. cos i wont blame myself... but is group pro.. n i dunwan to make ppl in trouble... i wil try my very very best to finish it...

i HATE UNI LIFE!!!!

important day

important day in chen's family.. 4-5-08
REMEMBER LOOO... haha.. cos our little cute n heavy n handsome baby boy r born in chen's family.. waha.... CONGRATULATION BRO N SIS IN LAW!!!

i cant denied it.... the baby boy is so so so FAT!!! but he is HANDSOME too.. u noe y? cos it is chen's family heredity!!! wahaha... cool man!!!1 how nice i'm tere... TT

but... at 2nd of may.. i lost my phone memory stick~~~ m2 micro..
i'm so so so moody n sad... not bcos of the money.. BUT... is those pics!!!!! i cant take it bac anymore... those my bro's wedding... those memorial pics!!!!!!!!!!! gosh man!!!!!
but mayb it hints me... everything ned to start from zero again. forgot the pass...
jus like nw.... new born baby in my family... start a new life for myself.. haha....
but i'm enjoying the life nw.. altho BC... but stil feel nice.....

n HAPPY 21ST B'DAY SIANG YUN!!! haha.. big big gal dy o.... wish all ur dreams wil come true ya.. ^^v

21st

thanks a lot guys!!!! i really appreciate it!!!! i'm serious!!!!
altho i'm not wf all my dearest qingu.. altho v r far apart!!!
BUT.... i stil very thansk u all.. n stil can feel the warmest thing in the world!!! thanks u guys!!!!
i love u all so much!!!!!

altho 21st b'day stil ned to work ... go class.. do assign.. rush for the due.. but.. i stil very enjoy it.. cos i noe.. u all oways by my side...

thean... thasnk for ur b'day card,musiz box,phone chain.... n of cos.. baby pooh.... its really a big surprise for it.... i wil nvr forget it.. thanks.... but no nex time lo... sor lo... MUD

pen pen.... dun think abt tat k... u oways my dearest pen pen.. my dear dear!!! no matter where u r... 朋友不是用这些来衡量的!!

fifi.. goh chai chai!!! thanks alot!! i'm so touch.. goh chai chai wil rmb it!!! so proud!!! fifi.. u bad la... say i'm mitsui poo'i'.... haha.. but thansk alot!!! CHAP GOH MEI rocks!!!

mr long!! thanks ar!!! hehe.... sorry la.. cant accom u in melbourne.. hehe.. but nvm la. i accom. u thru internet!! keke.. take care ya.. dun keep save money n dun eat ar.. mus learn from me.. keep eating!! keke.. thansk mr long!!!
paik shan.. thanks alot for ur flying kiss. haha.. i wont let CS noe de.. keke.. thanks.... it wont b late k!! hehe...
wei hong.. thasnk alot!!! hope u can finish ur dissertation on time.. dun so stress loo. gambateh!! n thasnk for the wishes altho u so bc.. thanks... goo.. thansk alot!!! its amazing.. haha.. u r so so nice!! thanks.....geeng foo, leong kuan n all the SEGi buddies!! thanks alot!!! haha...

ah ma!!! my NC1 mama... u r the best!!! haha.. i miss u so much. n of cos. i wil rmb the redang trip.. but duno when v got tat chance for 10 sis to meet up again....NC1… I miss u all so much~~~n thanks for everythings!!!

stevy!!! thanks alot!!!! thanks thanks thanks!!! v gambateh 2gether k!!! hehe

shaw pei!!! my TAC buddies!! thansk alot!!! i'm so touch. u in uk stil wish me on time.. so touch!! thanks!!!
heng chiang.. thanks for ur bookmark n b'day card. thansk. .i like it so much...

ben, eugene, kendrick... thanks for the surprise b'day cake!!! eemay,michael, yuen fei, eric n justin.. thanks for ur pooh's comforter (grow in dark sumore!!)

to all my frens… no matter u r from KC1.. KC gals high skl… st.john ambulance… NS… SEGi.. Curtin Uni, fren’s frens or colleagues…. All of u!!! I’m so glad to noe u all. Thanks for light up my life!!! Thanks!!!

n of cos!!! my most important!! CHEN'S FAMILY!! u all r the best!!! mucks!!! mummy.. thank for singing the songs for me.. sis!!! thanks for singing canton version... thru sms? haha.. dad.. thanks!! i appreaciate wat u all did!!! i;m so so touch!!! really... miss u~~~

pooh's room for 21st b'day?? haha.... thanks u guys!!!

2nd son

我又多一个儿子啦！！！谢谢你。。。TT

哈哈。。。。。

那就要来放放儿子们的照片咯。。

大儿子已经 7 岁咯！！！ 小儿子才刚刚到！！！哈哈。。

1st of april

happy april fool...

hah..... but at the same time.. its already 1 month... huh... so fast... haa.. time really flies...

nth can say much.... jus hope everyday is a happy day....

今天的你。。特别可爱。。。


~~林峰-爱在记忆中找你~~

默哀

请大家默哀一分钟吧。。。
刚刚接到我好姐妹的通知。。。他未来岳父移民了。。。
是一种解脱吗???可能是。。。可能不是。。。
对他来说。。。 可能是一种解脱。。。可是也是一种遗憾吧。。。
未能达成自己的愿望。。。就要提早跟这花花世界道别。。。
人死不能复生。。。节哀顺变。。这些话真的有用吗？？？可能有。。。因为它们都是安慰语。。。 不可忽略的。。可是。。真的有效吗？？？

请大家一定要好好爱惜自己的身体。。。别抽烟。。。少喝酒。。。。

assignmentsssss

assignmentss!!!! y those lecturer jus like to gv assignments to students???
y the assignments jus wil increase n wont decrease???? y is it non-stop... y is it continuous!!!
W-H-Y!!!........is dis wat v called 3rd yr degree life???
NO!!! i dunwan.... it's jus like killing me!!!!!
i already let dis stupid assigns torture me til my limit.... everyday did the same thing!! i'm goin to mad!!! CRAZY!!!!
everyday go lec... go tut... bac home.. open laptop.. start assign... do tut... y my life is so so so so repeated!!!! S-I-E-N~~~~
the same topic ned to face it for few weeks... after change another new topic but it wil b the most likely similar.... omg!!!! wat life is this.... 1st time hope tat i can sit for final.. better thn my life jus full of assigns.... but sumtimes it oso nice.. at least no ned study n memorise for those complicated formula... haih....
LIFE JUS GO COMPLICATED!!!! wat can i do????
ans : NOTHING!!!
as a stuednt... i can jus accept dis reality... n do it.... no matter how boring.. how frustrated.. how sick m i.. i stil ned to face it!!!!! but thanks god.. i stil got u all bside me.. to support me.. if not.. i'm really getting piss off 1 day... thanks.... d---.... thanks for cheer me up all the time.. haha.... mucks~~

but gals.. u noe... i seriously very very miss kuen cheng!!!! but too bad.. when ibac tat time. it already not the familiar kc for me.. cos its renovating nw... n i so so miss my kc GIRLS high skl... i luv u all!!!!!!!!! altho the old campus already gone. but i blief.. our frenship wil never ever gone rite!!!!! kuen cheng GIRLS high school rocks!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks

thanks kendrick!! ahah... tanks for ur smal pooh.. wahaha....

my newhsemate @ my new buddies..~~ kendrick...
y'day he won 2 mini pooh in his game... when he bac tat time.. i was goin crazy... cos i saw my dearest pooh.. haha.. n i was jus playing wf him n took his pooh.. but after tat i gv him bac..
a while later.. he realy gv me the pooh... cos he say he got 2 n he gv me 1~~~~!!!
kendrick!!! u r so so nice.. haa.. thanks alot ya.. nex time dun bully u tat much la k.. haa. bully abit la.. wahha.. thanks thanks....

d---... dun jealous o... haha.....

decision

i duno i got make wrong decision or wat.. but... jus hope dun hv...
mayb all the ppl wil say dis is stupid n a wrong decision... but.. i jus make it...
mayb i wil regret some time later.. but at least for nw.. i dun hv.. n really thanks for sum of u guys.... tat u all willing to support me.. thanks...

i oso hope it wil last 4ever... n sorry for being so selfish...... so sorry....


but 1st/2nd of march... it is a memorial day... thanks.... i oso wil nvr forget dis day.. thanks.. mucks...

距离

距离。。。
距离是什么呢？？？
是从A 地到 B 地的路程吗？？？
还是身高或年龄的差距？？？

距离跟爱情又有什么关联吗？？？
很多人都说距离跟爱情碰头时....多数会以分手为结局.... 这就是我们常说的远距离恋爱
难道近距离恋爱就不会吗？？？
可是。。。不是有很多成功的远距离恋爱情侣吗？？？

据我所知。。。最难经营的爱情并不是路程的距离。。或者年龄/身高的差距。。。
而是。。心的距离。。。
最让人痛心的莫过于你爱的人。。。并不是爱你的人。。。
陈小春不是有首歌叫做 《我爱的人》。。。
起初并不觉得什么。。。当听到林宥嘉唱《我爱的人》和《到不了》。。。感触却很深。。。是因为什么呢？？？
是因为他唱得太好？？ 我不知道。。。只是觉得很感动。。。
相爱的人不能在一起。。。是命运？？是报应？？还是诅咒？？？

最近的我想很多。。。是因为还没开课而胡思乱想？
还是因为那些话的关系？？ 还是我的愧疚心在作祟呢？？
有人可以把我的心或脑换掉吗？？？？
又或者可以叫我应该如何做呢？？？
如果不是因为有那些事发生。。 我应该不会想那么多吧。。
我的心应该往哪走呢？？？
睡醒一觉后。。。会变得不一样吗？？？

bac...

it's been a long time i din log in here.... duno y... i dun even wil feel to miss here.. y??
mayb bcos i'm bac to kl n i meet up all my dear qingu... tat's y i dun ned to b here to release my feel.. i think so...

seriously i very appreciate the time tat i'm in kl... i feel i'm so glad to born in kl... huh.. is it a bit siao?? or kuar cheong?? but i'm serious....

when i meet up wf my 10 sis.. ah ma.. masta.. bing bing.. lichee..sook yee.. xiang yun n ah looi.. my life start to light up again.. its really amazing.... i feel tat!!! when i'm wf them.. my life jus like bac to sec skl... the time v work 2gether in stjohn...play.. crazy 2gether n do watever.... although i cant meet up wf chia lee (duno how is she nw.) lising( duno when she willing to meet us up.. but wat i wan to say is.. no matter how u change.. u r stil my close frens... cos the time v pass 2gether r cant b forgotten)... n oso my sec skl kuen cheng girls high school already in the progress of renovation.... my beautiful "si he yuan" r gone... but... i noe tat.. the old KC stil in out heart.. n it wil nvr dissappear no matter wat....

2ndly, i meet up wf fifi n goh chai chai.. wow.. its great... v did a meaningfull thing... v went to orphan hse.. org cacat hse... n many many.. its so meaningful!!! n of cos... v help goh chai chai to bought few cloths!!! n oso fi's skirt!!! of cos cant forget is the nex day... v all like 伤残人士.. whole body pain like hell.. but v stil very happy. isnt it... the nex time v meet.. duno how many yrs... cos fi wil goin to uk in sept... n left goh chai chai alone in uk. nvm.. v got webcam!!! hehe... PROMISE YA.. MEET IN WEBCAM!!!

3rdly... of cos very hapy to meet bac my SEGi buddies!!! when i met up wf uma.. she praise me o.. n v talk alot. haa.. hope tat v stil got lot of time to meet up the nex time!!! bside tat.. oso get to met up wf a fatty wei hong... (ppl bac from uk dy.. but ar.. bcum very perasan dy.. oways praise himself very thin!! cheh!!) haha.. although cant meet paikshan... cheeseong.. yeh shyang...jay.. geengfoo(heard tat he hilang diri) n emily..ashley n others... but i'm stil glad sum of them willing to meet me (so touch!!!)... alan, alex, chee thong, wing kiat, leong kuan, n of cos stil got the gam yu lo uncle thean la.. haa.... tat day v spend sum time to chit chat!! n oso thanks to them!!! i get to noe how to play CS in cc.. wow... i'm a genius. cos i manage to kill ppl o!!! wahaha... wing kiat!! u r the 1st ppl let me kill.. wahaha.. thanks thanks... n of cos the stupid uncle thean!! aim to kil me onli!! hng~~ or shud say. all aim to kil me!!! onli leong kuan n alan r the best!!! help me to play!! wahaha.. yeah!!! after tat stil let uncle cheat me... say he hungry.. but. cheh... make me fat onli!!! cheh cheh cheh!!!

but time jus like flying.. those happy time wil end up very fast... jus like nw... i already bac to aus... n. duno when onli can go bac n meet them up... n of cos!!1 time really not enuf for me.. cos i stil got alot frens haven meet up.. like sui kiat... kok wai.. cheng han n many of them.. haih.. wasted!!! nex time mus bac earlier n get more time to meet!!!

n of cos i really thanks n appreciate.. on the last day in kl.. got a sor lo stil willing to go airport.. but too bad... ppl dunwan show face up... wat to do... but seriously thanks n i'm so touch leh!!! take care loo... n of cos. i wont forget tat i got a very very nice contract waiting for me de o... dun regret!! haha....

all my qingu!!! i ned to b bac the new carmen here... but.. when wf u all.. i'm stil the one.. haa... thanks u all... wait for me ok.. i wil b bac 1 yr later.... hah....mucks!!!!

累了，就把心事放下來

最近認識一位美國籍的出家師父，是個很有趣的事情。特別是他叫我舉起蕃茄汁跟他說話的經驗。我們約在新竹的一家茶館用英文談論著心經，師父用英文跟我解釋因果、輪迴這些事情，這都還不稀奇。有趣的事情在後頭呢！師父一聽完我跟他提到的個人煩惱的時候，他索性要我左手提起他剛買的三罐番茄汁，一邊提著，一邊跟他說話。可想而知，我左手感覺到疲勞的程度，跟時間成了正比。也懊惱著為何師父要我一邊提著三罐蕃茄汁，一邊跟他說話。受不了這樣的酸楚，我自行把左手放下，卻聽到師父跟我說：「Hold it up, and keep talking to me.」聽到這樣的話，心理不免起了疑心，我手提的那麼酸，為何不讓我放下手上的重物，輕鬆地與他對談？約莫過了15分鐘，我的左手實在承受不住了，才聽見師父跟我說：「Now you can put it down.」。看著我狐疑的臉，師父居然笑了出來。
「你不喜歡提著重物跟我說話，為何你卻喜歡帶著煩惱來跟我說話，過著你的生活呢？手酸了，放下就好，對待煩惱，不也是這樣？或是這些煩惱就像是那些番茄汁一樣，是你自己用手把它們給舉起來的呢？」有趣的經驗，對吧？最近我開始這樣的練習，一手舉起有重量的東西，一邊想著事情。手酸了，自然會放下手上的東西，看看有一天，我會不會也學到，心累了，就把心事給放下來。我們能很容易的放下有形的重物，
卻很難放下無形的重擔。
執著的人生會讓自己承擔莫需有的重擔。所以學習放下執著也就在學習人生自在。

读完这篇 email.. 我觉得他说得很对。。也让我的人生观有点改变了。。希望你们大家也可以学习放下烦恼。。凡事往好的方面想吧。。