无奈

我应该在赶 project 而不是在这里。。。 可是。。。 我真的提不起精神去做了。。。怎么做都算不了答案。。。真的想死啊。。。 真的很无奈啊。。。

当我来这里之前。。。去了我的space 看了以前的照片。。。我真的真的很想回到以前。。。那个无忧无虑的小学。。。生活过得非常充实的中学。。。我真的很想回去！！！ 我非常想念你们。。。 尤其是那个温暖又亲切的避风港~~~医疗室(1st aid room).... 真的很神奇。。。 去到那里。。 烦恼很快就不见了。。。

当然。我也很想念当时。。。F4 + manager 的时代。。。 相约去看电影。。。这些东西。。。应该很难在一起做了吧。。就算在一起。。。 当时的气氛。。。应该都没有了。。。

其实我也不知道我的心里在想什么。。。只是就得很复杂。。。可是又不知怎么说。。。 连我自己也不知道即应该怎样。。。 是压力？？ 还是害怕？？？ 或者想要逃避呢？？？ 我真的不知道。。。

时间毫不留情的飞逝。。。。 project due date 越来越接近。。考试更离我不远。。。如果世界真的有神明。。。　那请你保佑我吧。。。让我更专心去应付我的课业。。。其他事就让它搁在某个角落。。。等我放下我课业的包袱时。。。再回去慢慢整理它吧。。

秋冬离我而去。。。换来的是春夏。。。这个季节。。。会是个美好的季节吗？？？
既来之。。。则安之。。。　加油吧！！！

physical... mentally....everything

physical.. mentally... everything is so so tired...
i duno i can stand til when.... but.. jus.... i wil try my best....

jus.. everything cum 2gether...
everythign is cum until so sudden....
everythign is jus like killing me....
i really scare i cant cope with it.... but i noe tat.. there is no one can help me.. n i ned to lean on myself!!! n fight for it....

it's the time...

it's the time to let it go.... dun jus wallow in it... wake up!!!!
open ur big eyes!!!! the revolution of earth stil running.... everything stil the same...
class is stil on... exam is cumin soon... ur life is stil upgoing...
project's due r around the corner... work is waiting for u!!!
but the different thing is.... the time wil jus go forward... it wont go backward or even stop there to wait for u....
it wil only happen in movie or fairy tales....
in reality... IT WONT!!!

wat u ned to do is to update urself... cos if u dun.. u wil jus washout by the social.... n fell behind... n there is no one can help u.... u r the only one who can help u....
n u mus trust urself tat... u can make it!!! no matter how hard it is... u wil stil can handle it...
b confident to urself....

mayb it realy ned sum time to cover everything.. but.... u mus trust urself tat u can make it!!!
no one wil help u in tat... onli u.. urself... b strong!!!!
open ur heart n forgot the pass.... the whole new world is waiting for u....

FIGHTING!!!

王力宏 - 爱错

北风毫不留情 把叶子吹落
脆弱的它他选择的逃脱
叶子失去消息 风才感觉寂寞
整个冬天 北风的痛没人能说
我从来没想过 我会这样做
从来没爱过 所以爱错
我 从哪里起飞 从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过

翻开回忆角落 完美的生活
以为幸福都可以掌握
仔细回味当初那个故事背后喔
原来是我 犯下从没真的爱错
我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过 所以爱错
我 从那里起飞 从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过...

在这伤了你的世界 喔...找不会那些感觉
其实我不想 道别 那些过去
我从来没想过 我会这样做 从来没爱过 (从来没有爱过那么认的)
我从那里起飞 从那里降落(降落)
多少不能原谅的错却不能从
我从来没想过 我会这样做 从来没爱过(爱过)所以爱错(所以爱错)
从那里起飞(爱错 爱错 爱错baby) 从那里降落
多少不能原谅的错 请你原谅我的爱错

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jus finish my midterm... is really tiring...
but the hardest part jus start~~~~~ PROJECT!!!
i got 3 project waiting for me.. n 1 assignment.. which due on dis fri.. omg!!!!
STRESS man!!!!

but... duno y.. dis few days... my feeling jus like playing me... or wanna make fun wf me... i jus cant stop my mind.......... Y!!!!

i chat a lot wf my 1 of my hsemate.. v share our own thing... n it really make my mind goin crazy.... i noe i cant think like tat.. i ned to stop myself. i cant b so selfish.... i ned to let it go!!!!
but... y... i jus cant do it....

mayb is the time prob... i noe while time flies by... everything wil b fine.... god pls bless me.... n i wil try my best...

fren's bro

wow.. i get to noe tat 2 of my fren's bro hv been choosen for the ns (national service)!!!!
wow.. tat's cool!!!

"didi men".. dun worry... its realy a good experience for u all... serious!!! very nice!!!!
u wil get to noe alot frens tere.... n u wil enjoy the life there.... (i hope u can make it)....
cos the life there... really stressless!!! BUT u mus use ur heart to like it.... n realy enjoy it. mayb sum wil think it is very hard n "samfu" in camp.. but trust me... got frens.... watever u do.. u wil feel it is nice... serious... i hv experienced it!!! n i realy glad tat i noe a lot nice frens there.. although nw.. v seldom contact each other.. but... v stil 2gether!!!

"didi men".... like it u noe...

fifi's bro~ robin...
i heard tat ur sis n mom very worried abt u..
so u mus show them u can de!!!
n aunty!! u mus let ur son b indepentant!!! trust me... ns really like nth....
jus go there enjoy their life n holiday onli.... sumtimes u can gain weight but u oso can lose weight... depend... for me.. haha.. u all noe tat la.. hehe...

alan's bro...
u dun worry about ur hair style n wil bcum dark la....
cos everyone wil hv the same hair style wf u...
n... dark ar.. honestly.. when i bac tat time.. really look like a malay gal...
even ur bro oso said when he saw me in col.. i oso dark...
i think i use almost 2 to 3 months to fair bac... I THINK LA... not sure..
but if u wan.. u can use those whitening product ma... very fast de...
i'm lazy so i din use onli.. haha..
dun worry so much la... m'sia got alot product for whitening... so dun worry!!!

didi men....
pls enjoy it k!!!
i oso like ns very much... so enjoy it k....

holiday~in

wow.. so nice!!! i feel good!!!!
wahha... HOLIDAY!!! actually it is jus a study week... but.. i wil assume it as my holiday... haa.. cos i wont touch book for the 1st few days.. at least enjoy 1st rite.....
tat is wat human being ma.. haha.. life... v mus enjoy n play for it!!!! yeah!!!

although i can enjoy my holiday.. but i feel sorry to sum of my frens... b'cos i got such a long time din on9... i'm so sorry my dear.. sorry sorry.. u noe how lazy m i... so.. sumtime really not free...SORRY ya.... pls forgv me...

2day went to Carousel to find job... try my luck... my luck quite not bad.. i ask the Mc'D... they realy wna me.. but too bad.. i onli can work 1 day for it.. which is sat.... but.. i ned to earn alot money to cover bac my spend n of course.. i ned to earn money for my sis's brand new NIKE shoe... my parents birth's present.. n my family's present... tat's wil cost me alot!!!! n of course.. i ned to work hard.... so i goto apply for KFC...

once i go in KFC.. walao.. damn no feel... n when i fil in the application form... wasai!!!! 4 pages..~ so long!!! fill in til i siao... thn i try my luck goto HUNGRY JACK.. c wether the got any vacancy... lucky.. i can fill in the form.. n the time quite suit me.. BUT!!!! i duno they wanna hire me anot... tat's wat i waiting for... hope they wil cal me n ask me to start work at dis sat!!!!
if not.. i realy can work in Mc'D onli for 1 day.. pls!!! dun do ta to me.. if i onli work for 1 day.. i duno when onli i can reach my target!!!! oh no~~~~~ GOD PLS HELP ME!!!!!~~~